Trusting Him

This is about working hard to gain ones self respect and have a happy, healthy life, and a great relationship with God and fully trusting in him no matter the odds. I have prayed for a long time for my son to have a desire to work, to have goals and all the things a Mother wants for her child. I am thankful that he has a great wife, and a strong relationship with the Lord. He has had to overcome the loss of a son, Kurtis wayne, and another miscarriage just recently. He has had some hard knocks in life but I have to say it has only brought him closer to God. After the loss of his first son  and his wife Shelly nearly losing her life during her pregnancy, and on a lesser note,as a result of all the medical leave lost a very good job. Trouble seemed to arrive from every direction and in every form. I feared for my sons hope and happiness, but he soon bounced back with more faith and drive than he had once had. Since then; Gary has the most high paying job he has ever had to date and enjoys his work . Today my son and daughter-in-law still are certain one day God will bless them with a child. He also received a great gift here recently, a house fully paid for and given to him and his wife. Completely free of any charges. What a BLESSING!!!

I am sure they have experienced much sadness due to all the struggles, I know I have, my faith felt very tried at times, for my son and his wife as well. We spent many hours talking and expressing our hurt. I have to say my son probably helped me more than I did him during this trying time. He said, Mom our Kurt is with Jesus and he will never experience the pain or hurt in this life, he will never suffer not one single day, he is now an angel that keeps watch over us with the Lord in heaven. How inspiring to hear those words coming from your child who has endured so much. My son has know of many struggles in his 27 yrs, he was a miracle himself you see. He knew of my fight to have him ,my son, he also knows of my troubled pregnancy the doctors seemed certain Id lose him. I refused to accept that! He had many surgery's to correct an intestinal birth defects for the 1st year and 1/2 of his life. He survived meningitis, and many more close calls, just as I have also in my life.

 My message to all is to never give up on yourself or God, because sorrow may endure for a night but joy will come in the morning. For your Sons and daughters always show your faith, hope, and love for them, encourage them no matter the circumstance. One day they will end up helping you instead the other way round. I spoke to my son for a long time yesterday and told him of my Blog and he loved the idea. He sends his love and much prayer to those who are going through a rough times. In my eyes he is a hero to me. He is the rainbow in my life, my dear son. Keep searching for the good in everything, and if you are patient you will find the the pot of gold at the end of Gods rainbow.

Did I Miss His Call?

This week our phone has been out.  We have cell phones but like most people our home phone is the number most every one calls.  I had wondered during the outage how many people had tried  to call.  I was also curious as to who called and what they might have wanted to say?  Did I miss anyone important?

I said all that to say, do you wonder if you have missed an important call from the Father. If we listen to God and wait for him he will give us the desires of our heart and it will be in Gods timing, not ours.  Many obstacles will try and stand in the way to prevent or even steal ones blessing.

Therefore look to God for your dreams, you never know when they may come to pass.   I was reminded that sometimes when things look there worst, the closer your blessings are, So don't give up.

The Angel

This is about an incredible time in me life. I was 18 yrs old , and pregnant. I was very grateful to God for the baby that was growing inside me, he was a miracle. The doctors had already told me I could not have a child and if I ever got pregnant I would not carry him full term. Now, five months pregnant I was a very happy person to say the least. Jesus had answered my hearts desire to be a mother. Things were smooth sailing the 1st few months, my faith was soaring, little did I know just how far that my faith would have to take me.

One evening I was taking my evening bath and I noticed the water was turning very red. As I stood up and realized it was blood. I said No! No this is not happening. My husband started calling Doctor, Hospital, & parents, I quickly thought "JESUS"! For some reason at first I did not really pray much, I just began to sing to the Lord, I was unusually calm for some one severely hemorrhaging. As my family franticly got me to the hospital and the doctors arrived and started the usual IVs and blood transfusions. A bit later I heard the doctors telling my husband and parents I would probably lose the baby.

I held my Bible close to my heart and quietly prayed to my Jesus and this is what I said; I love you dear Jesus. Thank you for giving me this child. Thank you that in your word it says if you have the faith of a tiny mustard seed, I do have faith and I know you will not let my baby die. Thank you, I love you.

I was now put on bed rest. These episodes occurred quite frequently each time my God and bible went with me, [to the hospital] and faithfully I prayed my little prayer as the doctor gave my parents his usual grim view of me and my baby boys fate.

Now having made it into my 7th month I continued to grow weaker. The doctors now informed my family that my child now had a chance of surviving but me, not so good. Now my baby had better odds at survival than me. I heard them in the hall and suddenly just screamed NO!!! I told them all to stop saying that. I raised my bible off my chest and said GOD says I will live and I did not try for all these yrs to have this baby for one of us to just up and die. I serve a big God and there are lots of people praying for me. I know he wont let me down. I think I scared them when I did this because it was kinda like Lazareth rising from the dead. After that they stopped telling my family we were at deaths door.

I recovered some what from this episode and in very poor condition. That night as I lay in my bed asking for God to keep me and my baby safe as he always did an angel appeared...
It was a brilliant site. I was so amazed at the white haze that surrounded him he was no small angel he must have been 8 feet tall and he spoke to me in a soft voice . He said everything will be OK , God is taking care of you. The peace that had been within my heart became even greater. How sweet that God would send me an angel right before I was to give birth to the greatest gift in a womans life - her child.

My son was born 1 or 2 months early and we lived. Just like God promised. We made it. After my son God blessed me with 2 girls. Now I have 3 lovely children and 5 healthy grandchildren. I am so, so, blessed. See what our Father in heaven can do. He is amazing, Hes awesome, any thing is possible with God! Have a little faith, yes even the size of a mustard seed we can move mountains. To this day I will never forget the angel Jesus sent especially for me.

On a personal note;
Thank you Jesus for all my children, I have to say again - I am truly blessed and I have the best family on earth. And a special thanks to Wayne and Carolyn who sat at my bedside and prayed and for staying at my sons side till he was safely transfered to Texas Children's Hospital. My son carries the name Gary Wayne because of all the prayers and a very,very special family member, his sweet Uncle Wayne. May God Bless you both for all you have given. Thank you

So Blessed am I

Have you ever had someone so close to you it seemed as if they new if you were ok or not and knew exactly what to say or do? I am just that lucky. This person is so caring and always extends a kind word, a helping hand, a prayer when needed or just an I love you. They can be reached 24/7 and although they have their own life they have been kind enough to always include me too. How blessed am I that some one cares for me so? They have given me self esteem when I needed it most. They stuck by me through thick and thin. They accept me for just who I am. If they only knew how blessed I am.

This person is kind and gentle always tending to others than them selfs. Suppers on the table, baby's nice and clean, clothes are ironed and all hung up. Cookies baked for meeting, Oh my, Have I called Mom today? Has we visited with the family this week? Has everyone got their turn with the baby? Did I get my worship songs just right for church tonight? She's all that and much more !!! She is very special, and a blessing to anyone who crosses her path, she is madly in love with Jesus thats what makes her who she is. In her busy schedule the bible is not forgotten, the prayers are always prayed, and Jesus is always praised.

I want to make sure this person knows her worth and how I see her walking in Christ every day! I want to thank you for all you've done for myself and others. For the sweetness you have brought and what you have given has made our corner of the world a brighter place. Thanks for being an example for others in following God and faithfully serving him. I believe for this you have a brighter spirit, a sweetness and grace about you. Know with your loving spirit you have a gift for drawing people in and wanting to meet Christ because they see what God has done for you, they want it to. You are a beautiful and unique person. and the love of Jesus beams from those pretty eyes you have. Please don't forget you! You are the sunshine of my life. Thank you & Be Blessed. Happy Birthday T.

He Never Promised Me A Rose Garden

Sometimes in life we are faced with physical, mental, & spiritual battles, the list goes on. This does not mean we have committed some terrible sin or that God has abandoned us, it's just life. God never said we would be without trials. In the Bible Job went through many tests and trials. I used to wonder when I got ill, lonely or sad - What did I do wrong? Where did God go? I just felt like giving up. If I do, what is my alternative? There is none that is acceptable other than turning to our Lord Jesus Christ.

I have to remind myself that God is here. He is with me in the valleys and on the mountaintop. He loves me, and there is something good which comes out of every situation and a useful lesson learned. In my opinion, He is the answer to all life's struggles, and He stands for all that is good, happy, and pure. He is our hope and salvation. I believe this with all my heart - that God brings healing and peace to all who love Him. I am living proof of that!!! Of course, there are times when I was convinced I could surely handle these problems on my own. That was not such a great idea - big surprise. I can assure you that it was only when I could let go of my problems and give them completely to God that they were resolved.

God is surely big enough to deal with anything if we only let Him. We will be the better Christian for it! I pray this will give some hope to those who are running low on faith. Faith is what will get us through the rough times, so rest in the Lord, trust Him with all your heart and soul and lean not on your own understanding. We all have fears and question our faith at times, so don't be so hard on yourself. And hey, we are all Christians striving to live a better life, and I just know its gonna be OK.

They Stand By Me

I have recently had an illness that prevented me from pretty much doing any of the things I did with my family on a regular basis. I grew very insecure about certain relationships. I felt guilty and concerned that my children would feel abandoned because of my lack of communication. I felt like I was a burden but sometimes we just have to let go and let others take care of us.

Then God reminded me how unconditionally, my husband and children had always loved and supported me through the good and the bad. They stood by me!!! They stand by me and God stands by all of us!!!

I guess the message in this is... Most of us know our families love and care for us. So just think how much more God loves you and me. It is beyond our comprehension. Another thing God showed me is that I should worry for nothing for tomorrow will take care of itself. Boy, am I glad I serve a big God!!! Aren't you?